This week has been interesting. I had two friends call me and tell me they felt like I would meet my life partner soon, I definitely laughed it off, but as I sat down and thought about it, I found myself asking God for more time.
More time to be alone. Is that weird? I mean I highly doubt I would be found anytime soon [we are stuck indoors after all], but I have gotten to the point where I am finally enjoying my single season and I have way too many plans.
I don't want to be slowed down by anyone.
It's taken me so long to reach this point, but I'm actually happier on my own at the moment.
I am so productive.
I am saving.
I am healing.
I am setting goals + smashing them.
I am losing weight [most days, lol].
I am focused.
I am prayerful.
I am falling in love with Jesus again and it is the sweetest thing ever.
I am falling in love with life.
I am falling in love with myself.
I am minding my business [literally].
So no I don't want the pillow talk and company, I think I can hold out on that for a while, I'm just looking forward to enjoying life fully when this quarantine is completely over!
I was telling a friend the other day that I honestly didn't enjoy my single season before I had a child. I spent most of my days studying, on placement or sleeping. I didn't travel much and I didn't do all the things on my bucket list. I was always waiting until 'that day' to start living.
That day never came though lol. So now I only have one child, I intend to live life to the fullest before a man and more children [and more responsibilities] come to tie me down.
I encourage you to do the same sis.
Stop waiting for a man to start living.
Stop waiting to be at a certain weight before you start living.
Live the life you want now.
Even if you are a fellow single mother, I feel like sometimes, people make us feel like getting married solves everything. It takes away that stigma of being a single mother and automatically your life is supposed to be amazing when you finally get a man. But we all know that's far from true. Sis, you have Jesus, and He is all you need! Believe me!
I created a mini thread on Instagram which goes through the different ways you can make the most out of your single season, feel free to check it out!
Email me or DM me and tell me what you plan on doing with your single season, maybe I can add it to my list too.
One thing I will be doing is monthly trips with Cairo.
Being locked up made me appreciate how lucky we are to travel, so every month, I'm going to choose a town in the UK and travel there with Cairo for the weekend, we are going to explore, play, shop, take pictures and make memories.
I plan on living my best life with this kid!
Just my thoughts!
- millicent x